Katy Perry is Ashamed That She Thought About Committing Suicide in the Past

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Katy Perry recently did something that would give most celebrities nightmares — live-streamed her life for everyone to watch for an entire weekend. The Witness World Wide event was in support of her new album, Witness, and showed fans that the 32-year-old really isn’t THAT abnormal. In addition to broadcasting KP playing fun games with people like James Corden and RuPaul, the live-stream also showed the “Swish Siwsh” crooner in an hour-long therapy session with Dr. Siri Singh from The Therapist on Viceland.

Katy got incredibly real throughout the entire session, but perhaps nothing hit fans harder than when she broke down in tears after the doctor asked, “Did you ever have some thoughts where Katy just didn’t want to go on?”

“Yeah,” KP confirmed through sobs. “[…] It’s hard because I feel ashamed that I would even have those thoughts and feel that low, or that depressed.”

The brunette has previously discussed struggling with thoughts of killing herself and depression after getting divorced from Russell Brand in 2012. In fact, her song, “By the Grace of God,” was written after she was “lying on the floor of a bathroom, fighting suicidal thoughts.”

She told Billboard magazine in 2013, “That song is evident of how tough it really was at a certain point. I asked myself, ‘Do I want to endure? Should I continue living?'”

Katy mentioned “BtGoG” again during her therapy session with Dr. Singh, but this time gave a little more explanation of the meaning.

“I wrote that song, ‘By the Grace of God,’ because I do believe in something much bigger than me, and I call that god for me.”

You can watch the singer’s whole session from the Witness World Wide live-stream below:

If you or someone you know is having suicidal thoughts, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

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