YouTube Star’s Depression Following Shocking Divorce Reaches Breaking Point
Fans were absolutely heartbroken to learn that Colleen Ballinger filed for divorce from her husband of a little over a year, Joshua Evans, back in September 2016, but perhaps no one was more upset than the 31-year-old himself.
The YouTuber said at the time, “I want it to be known that I am not choosing this divorce. I don’t want this divorce. I want her, but I truly believe she thinks she is making the right decision right now.”
Josh has been struggling with his mental health ever since the public breakup, and while he tried his best to pick himself up every time he fell into a spiral of depression, he never “bounced [back] very high.”
“I don’t want to say I’m clinically depressed, but you know I haven’t been okay. […] I haven’t been okay ever since everything happened, even before it all blew up in my face,” he said in a recent YouTube video. “I haven’t bounced back and it’s affected so much of my life.”
The singer and actor is finally at a point, however, that he realizes he “can’t keep doing what [he’s] been doing” and is seeking professional help to deal with his mental issues.
He continued, “I realized a few days ago that I just can’t do it on my own anymore. I’ve been trying things here and there to find this inner happiness again and I find it for a moment and then it’s gone. I can’t do it by myself, so I did a lot of research and I found a therapist and I had my first session two days ago and that session blew my mind a little bit.”
Joshua is using YouTube to hold himself accountable for healing, bettering himself and not letting depression consume him any longer.
“I wanna make it a point that dealing with depression and dealing with negative thoughts and dealing with sadness should not be something that’s embarrassing to talk about, because if you don’t talk about it, if you don’t deal with it, it will consume you. It has consumed me. It still consumes me.”
You can watch JE’s full inspirational video below:
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Instead of being ashamed of his depression, the 5SOS guy thinks of it as a way to "spread a bigger message than just music" to his fans. Ashton told The Sydney Morning Herald that he has "dealt with anxiety and depression in [his] life," and wants people to know that's okay. The musician is known for spreading positivity on social media, including a recent post that said:
"Some days your head will be a whirlpool of depression and anxiety! In those days you gotta breath & focus on everything great in life!"